In my journey of the past year, I’ve experienced major transformation and growth. One of the struggles I’ve had over the years has been letting go paths not taken. This was a common theme throughout the medicine journeys – mourn the paths not taken and let them go…
The word caedere means cut in Latin. In English, it evolved to -cide.
The word sui in Latin is self. Suicide is to kill oneself.
The word genos in Greek is race. Genocide is to destroy a race.
The most important -cide is to decide.
For me, Miss Rabbit represented the paths not taken. She was someone I could love, she could love me back in another lifetime, another dimension, that we glimpsed together at the Sasquatch House. She was a fantasy, a dimension that could have been a perfect manifestation of a life spectacular.
Loving Miss Rabbit unconditionally was an exercise in love. At the end of the day, I had to allow and surrender to the decision of the universe. By learning to let go of expectation, it gave me the ability to decide… which in this case was to cut off, and walk in a different path…
- come to a resolution in the mind as a result of consideration.
“they decided to appoint someone else”
- cause to come to a resolution.
“this business about the letter decided me”
- make a choice from a number of alternatives.
“she had decided on her plan of action”
Once I decided to let go, my life took off like a rocketship – Burning Man, manifestations in my career, the complete healing of my wife, the joyous sacrifice of letting go of all paths and accepting… surrendering to my amazing life.
Over this past weekend, I went out with my other friend Miss Demonslayer, a close sister, enveloped in shadow, with a heart of gold. She is going through a transition of deep heartbreak, and I held space as she remembered herself. We went to see The Greatest Showman and the movie hit me powerfully.
It’s everything you ever want
It’s everything you ever need
And it’s here right in front of you
This is where you wanna be
Impossible comes true, it’s taking over you
Oh, this is the greatest show
Everything is a choice, and I’ve chosen my path… Everything is a hero’s journey, and everything you want is right in front of you. Like the story of the alchemist, it’s always a journey to discover that everything you’ve ever wanted is at home, inside your heart.
Isn’t that the ultimate metaphor? Life is the greatest show.