Miss Rabbit

In my journey of the past year, I’ve experienced major transformation and growth. One of the struggles I’ve had over the years has been letting go paths not taken. This was a common theme throughout the medicine journeys – mourn the paths not taken and let them go…

The word caedere means cut in Latin. In English, it evolved to -cide.
The word sui in Latin is self. Suicide is to kill oneself.
The word genos in Greek is race. Genocide is to destroy a race.

The most important -cide is to decide.

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For me, Miss Rabbit represented the paths not taken. She was someone I could love, she could love me back in another lifetime, another dimension, that we glimpsed together at the Sasquatch House. She was a fantasy, a dimension that could have been a perfect manifestation of a life spectacular.


Loving Miss Rabbit unconditionally was an exercise in love. At the end of the day, I had to allow and surrender to the decision of the universe. By learning to let go of expectation, it gave me the ability to decide… which in this case was to cut off, and walk in a different path…

  • come to a resolution in the mind as a result of consideration.
    “they decided to appoint someone else”
  • cause to come to a resolution.
    “this business about the letter decided me”
  • make a choice from a number of alternatives.
    “she had decided on her plan of action”

Once I decided to let go, my life took off like a rocketship – Burning Man, manifestations in my career, the complete healing of my wife, the joyous sacrifice of letting go of all paths and accepting… surrendering to my amazing life.

Over this past weekend, I went out with my other friend Miss Demonslayer, a close sister, enveloped in shadow, with a heart of gold. She is going through a transition of deep heartbreak, and I held space as she remembered herself. We went to see The Greatest Showman and the movie hit me powerfully.


It’s everything you ever want
It’s everything you ever need
And it’s here right in front of you
This is where you wanna be

Impossible comes true, it’s taking over you
Oh, this is the greatest show

Everything is a choice, and I’ve chosen my path… Everything is a hero’s journey, and everything you want is right in front of you. Like the story of the alchemist, it’s always a journey to discover that everything you’ve ever wanted is at home, inside your heart.


Isn’t that the ultimate metaphor? Life is the greatest show.


The Emerald Dream

The Emerald Dream is a vast and ever-shifting dimension of spirits and nature magic that defies mortal perceptions of reality. Time and distance hold no meaning in this intangible realm, and a day on the physical world and feel like decades in the Dream.

EmeralddreamI traveled to a verdant forest sanctuary with my wife which was a launchpad to another dimension. We took two trips on two nights. First, a gentle Hawaiian space cruiser that caressed our souls, then a Peruvian rocketship that took me on a cosmic rollercoaster ride through the universe.

Our guide was Galadriel, the Elf Queen, who had piercing bright portal eyes, and a voice so achingly beautiful that it tore my heart apart with exquisite fractal love and reassembled it with waves of energy that felt like ecstatic magma. Forging my heart and soul with the powerful caress of Mother Nature.

On the first evening, the Aloha spirit was gentle. She whispered in my ear, “You’re on the right path…” and showed me my life and the power of choice. “You can choose whatever you want. Reality is a choice.” Early in the journey, I refueled and was gripped with fiery liquid tendrils of energy that gripped my body and being, squeezing my shadows out. After that intense experience, the rest of the night was a journey of bliss and relaxation.

I stepped out into the cool forest air and gazed at the living painting of the night sky shimmering. I was staring the magical fabric of reality and the stars whispered to me with mysterious messages.

The next morning, the wife and I went for a stroll on the ocean cliffs. It was a beautiful day. We relaxed in the sanctuary and waited for our second journey.

On the second evening, I sat with Galadriel and told her, “I want it to be more powerful tonight.” She stared deep into my eyes… as if to make sure I was ready. As the room went dark, I sat back into my seat, waiting for liftoff. Galadriel brought a copilot tonight, Drum Warrior, who alternated with Galadriel in piloting the rocketship.

Immediately, we took off to another dimension. A large cosmic temple structure filled with Divine presence, made of geometric patterns and eyes, filled my mind’s eye. I was overwhelmed with its intensity. The rest of the evening was a journey to other dimensions where I connected to Divine Grandmother, Great Spirit, and the Spirit of the Tribes of Man. My consciousness got stuck in a loop between complete Love/Surrender and Shadow/Control. I metaphysically experienced the danger of desire to control chaos and how that can lead to tyranny. I was at the edge of reality and struggled to come back to this dimension. It was intense and terrifying.

I summoned my Warrior spirit and sat up in the cockpit. A giant Jaguar god gazed down at me, its presence towering over me. It was a reminder to always find the Inner Warrior and sit or stand straight and face chaos head-on, with Strength within Shadow.

Finally, the candle was lit, I returned to my body, and felt intense gratitude to be human again. It was good to be home.



Don’t Panic!

“Since when in the history of civilization, has panic been the proper solution to… anything?”

It’s been a while since I’ve written on this blog. There’s actually lots I want to write about. I’ve had lots of journeys and experiences.

I think the biggest insight I’ve gained in the past few months is the need for responsibility, emotional resilience, and faith.

After reading some interviews with Elon Musk and learning how Isaac Asimov’s Foundation series really impacted him, I finally got around to reading it. We are living in an age where “psychohistory” is not predicting a good future, and I’ve been spending a lot of time thinking about these topics…

We are crossing four of the nine Planetary Boundaries, our collective sensemaking apparatus is in complete disarray, and everything is shifting exponentially.

Coming soon, posts on:

  • My Burning Man experience.
  • Redwood forest interdimensional travel.
  • Ayahuasca cosmic temple journeys.

Stay tuned, and in the meantime, Don’t Panic!


Tranquility Leads to Transcendence

I’ve been on a journey the past three years. Seeking. Finding myself. Unplugging from the Matrix. My grandfather named me based on the following Chinese 成語 , 寧靜致遠。


Translation is a subtle thing.

  • Find Peace and One will Go Far in Life.
  • Keep Calm and Follow Through.
  • Tranquility Leads to Transcendence.

Names are a powerful thing. I was blessed with a good name. It literally translates to King of Transcendence. I’ve been seeking Higher Consciousness and found it through various modalities. This post is about these Red Pills.


“You take the red pill, you stay in Wonderland… and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.”

I was hanging out with Redbeard a few weeks ago, an old friend. He tells me,

“You’ve been on my todo list for years. To meet up with you, so you can explain LIFE to me.”

I’ve been using several primary modalities to increase consciousness. The synergy between the methods has felt like a deep cleaning of my consciousness, excavating trauma and breaking limiting beliefs.

1) Plant Medicines & Psychedelics

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  • Psilocybin
  • Ayahuasca
  • Bobinsana
  • Huachuma
  • Singada
  • Vilca
  • 5MEO-DMT

2) Yoga & Meditation

  • Jivani Yoga TT
  • The Cutting Machinery

3) Personal Development Work

  • PSI Seminars
  • Kwik Learning
  • JP Sears
  • Burning Man
  • Miss Rabbit

All of these different modalities have been profoundly transformative for me.

The Long Road. It never ends.