The Balance Favors Epiphany

“The Balance Favors Epiphany.” -Teju Cole

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Balance and Epiphany.
Words have Power.
Semantics are Critical.
We tend to oversimplify and reduce reality for our understanding.

The Left and The Right.
The Blue Church and the Trump Insurgency.
The Postmodernists and the Intellectual Dark Web.
Liberals and Conservatives.
Chesed and Gevorah.
Chaos and Order.
Yin and Yang.


It is a never-ending battle of ideologies.
When in truth, the problem is ideology.
Ideology is a shortcut to avoid thinking.

It is time for a Revolution.
A Revolution of thinking.
We need to have a new global worldview.
A new Weltanschauung.

The collective consciousness is awakening.
Time to start Thinking.
We have a complex world with complex problems.
Apocalyptic problems.


The Central Truth.
The Golden Thread.
We are all One.

It’s All Sacred

A couple years ago, I was at a Sunday Sadhana weekend retreat with one of my yoga teachers, Kenobi. He was a Jedi Yogi who taught ancient Vedic traditions and had studied Tantra, plant medicines, and rocks an epic beard.

He was talking about how everything is Sacred, when Miss Demon Slayer interrupts, “Even B&H Rap?” Kenobi says, “Maybe, except for B&H Rap… like Nelly.”

I interject, “No way! Nelly is a romantic.” Everyone laughs, but it’s true!

Anyway, this notion of Sacred and not Sacred, duality and non-duality. Every moment in history has brought us to the present moment… NOW. One of the beautiful things about every moment of existence, the great story of Earth, is that it’s all Sacred. The pain, the suffering, the joy, the love… We have compassion, we feel empathy, we have the ability to understand.

I’m a big fan of the HBO television series, Silicon Valley. When Jian-Yang goes gangster, they play this Chinese rap song. A Chinese rap song! Tribal traditions from Africa, put through the crucible of American music to create a new art form, then exported overseas to China, blended into the song 我想要 (I Want). A Chinese Mandarin rap.

Then we have 死了都要爱 (Love until the End), a Chinese rock ballad…

There is so much anger in this world… So much suffering… Yet so much beauty… and so much more…


“Whereas the beautiful is limited, the sublime is limitless, so that the mind in the presence of the sublime, attempting to imagine what it cannot, has pain in the failure but pleasure in contemplating the immensity of the attempt”

-Immanuel Kant

I went to a beautiful art show in Paris, L’Atelier des Lumières. It was a gorgeous blending of paintings, sculpture, architecture, classical and immersive music, orchestrated as a surreal, sublime experience with the magic of technology.

Beauty is the housing for the divine… and humanity is the witness of the sublime. Humanity takes beauty and creates sublime divinity.

We must take this gift of a planet and experience… and find the resolve to continue the Infinite Game of experiencing the Divine. It’s all Sacred. Welcome to Heaven.

Welcome to Planet Earth

We are 7.5 billion people, living on a planet, called Earth.
Sometimes, it seems that we collectively forget about this fact.

Humanity is going through a multidimensional existential crisis – AI, geopolitical instability, climate change, superbugs, more…

In the past few months, I’ve been on a few journeys to other worlds…

I’ve now had a few extradimensional encounters with Jesus. The Spirit of Man, an archetype of surrender and sacrifice. There is a strange balance between the struggle of being and the peace of absolute surrender.American Gods Jesus

I’ve been to forests that span multiple dimensions. Trees are shimmering pillars of energy, wise old spirits. Many have become sick in recent years, ravaged by drought and invasive beetles. The trees are sad, but patient, waiting for humanity to awaken.muirwoods

I had a dance with a Mayan Princess in an interdimensional desert filled with cosmic light and music. We danced, played, and connected with the child-like mind and wandered through dimensions of love and light.aztec_goddess_by_infinitecreations__remix__by_horusrogue-d9x9uzi.png

These journeys through hyperspace and beyond space-time are ineffable and timeless. At the end of it all, I’ve come back to this dimension and am grounding myself. I was at a rooftop bar in Puerto Rico a few weeks ago, drinking tequila and discussing reality with some polymath friends.

“It’s a puzzle… The question is… do you like puzzles?” -The Kabbalist

Isn’t that the ultimate metaphor for life? We struggle to find meaning, and the meaning is always in the struggle.

“The purpose of life is to find something so meaningful that the fact that life is suffering becomes irrelevant” -JBP

I’ve been fairly grounded on Earth in the past few months. I’ve passed on some interdimensional rocketships, and the furthest dimension I’ve traveled to recently was Tokyo, where I spent some time with the Godfather of Roppongi, danced with a mermaid, experienced an abundance of food, wine, and the attention of beautiful women.

Temptation is a bitch. We are bottomless pits of desire.

“What do I really want?”
“What do you really want?”
“What is your dream?”

I’m unraveling the puzzle… I believe that manifestation is limitless. However, the challenge is to figure out our true north. What is our deepest intention, then surrender to it.

One of my favorite shows on television is Legion.


“Find a nice quiet hilltop somewhere. Settle down. Live.”

“What ab–”

“What about what? Saving the world?
The world’ll be just fine. It always is.
I mean, things might get worse for awhile. Maybe people will die.
Hmm. We all die eventually.
The real tragedy is forgetting to live.

Save yourself. While you still can.”

This is not to say we shouldn’t do our best to continue the existence of humanity. Things are serious. We might not make it out of this century. The Earth will survive. Life will continue. We might not.

At the end of the day, it comes back to the fact that our consciousness is visiting this planet, Earth, from outside of space-time. Every moment on this planet, every bite of food, every sensation, every emotion of joy, love, and sadness is a gift. What are the odds that we get to be here, at this time, in this reality, with the infinitesimal odds that this existence could even happen?

We are visitors to the Earth Planetary Park, enjoying the “trees” and the scaffolding that we’ve built around it.

Humanity’s consciousness is raising. Life is beautiful. The answer to the puzzle is gratitude.



Miss Rabbit

In my journey of the past year, I’ve experienced major transformation and growth. One of the struggles I’ve had over the years has been letting go paths not taken. This was a common theme throughout the medicine journeys – mourn the paths not taken and let them go…

The word caedere means cut in Latin. In English, it evolved to -cide.
The word sui in Latin is self. Suicide is to kill oneself.
The word genos in Greek is race. Genocide is to destroy a race.

The most important -cide is to decide.

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For me, Miss Rabbit represented the paths not taken. She was someone I could love, she could love me back in another lifetime, another dimension, that we glimpsed together at the Sasquatch House. She was a fantasy, a dimension that could have been a perfect manifestation of a life spectacular.


Loving Miss Rabbit unconditionally was an exercise in love. At the end of the day, I had to allow and surrender to the decision of the universe. By learning to let go of expectation, it gave me the ability to decide… which in this case was to cut off, and walk in a different path…

  • come to a resolution in the mind as a result of consideration.
    “they decided to appoint someone else”
  • cause to come to a resolution.
    “this business about the letter decided me”
  • make a choice from a number of alternatives.
    “she had decided on her plan of action”

Once I decided to let go, my life took off like a rocketship – Burning Man, manifestations in my career, the complete healing of my wife, the joyous sacrifice of letting go of all paths and accepting… surrendering to my amazing life.

Over this past weekend, I went out with my other friend Miss Demonslayer, a close sister, enveloped in shadow, with a heart of gold. She is going through a transition of deep heartbreak, and I held space as she remembered herself. We went to see The Greatest Showman and the movie hit me powerfully.


It’s everything you ever want
It’s everything you ever need
And it’s here right in front of you
This is where you wanna be

Impossible comes true, it’s taking over you
Oh, this is the greatest show

Everything is a choice, and I’ve chosen my path… Everything is a hero’s journey, and everything you want is right in front of you. Like the story of the alchemist, it’s always a journey to discover that everything you’ve ever wanted is at home, inside your heart.


Isn’t that the ultimate metaphor? Life is the greatest show.


The Emerald Dream

The Emerald Dream is a vast and ever-shifting dimension of spirits and nature magic that defies mortal perceptions of reality. Time and distance hold no meaning in this intangible realm, and a day on the physical world and feel like decades in the Dream.

EmeralddreamI traveled to a verdant forest sanctuary with my wife which was a launchpad to another dimension. We took two trips on two nights. First, a gentle Hawaiian space cruiser that caressed our souls, then a Peruvian rocketship that took me on a cosmic rollercoaster ride through the universe.

Our guide was Galadriel, the Elf Queen, who had piercing bright portal eyes, and a voice so achingly beautiful that it tore my heart apart with exquisite fractal love and reassembled it with waves of energy that felt like ecstatic magma. Forging my heart and soul with the powerful caress of Mother Nature.

On the first evening, the Aloha spirit was gentle. She whispered in my ear, “You’re on the right path…” and showed me my life and the power of choice. “You can choose whatever you want. Reality is a choice.” Early in the journey, I refueled and was gripped with fiery liquid tendrils of energy that gripped my body and being, squeezing my shadows out. After that intense experience, the rest of the night was a journey of bliss and relaxation.

I stepped out into the cool forest air and gazed at the living painting of the night sky shimmering. I was staring the magical fabric of reality and the stars whispered to me with mysterious messages.

The next morning, the wife and I went for a stroll on the ocean cliffs. It was a beautiful day. We relaxed in the sanctuary and waited for our second journey.

On the second evening, I sat with Galadriel and told her, “I want it to be more powerful tonight.” She stared deep into my eyes… as if to make sure I was ready. As the room went dark, I sat back into my seat, waiting for liftoff. Galadriel brought a copilot tonight, Drum Warrior, who alternated with Galadriel in piloting the rocketship.

Immediately, we took off to another dimension. A large cosmic temple structure filled with Divine presence, made of geometric patterns and eyes, filled my mind’s eye. I was overwhelmed with its intensity. The rest of the evening was a journey to other dimensions where I connected to Divine Grandmother, Great Spirit, and the Spirit of the Tribes of Man. My consciousness got stuck in a loop between complete Love/Surrender and Shadow/Control. I metaphysically experienced the danger of desire to control chaos and how that can lead to tyranny. I was at the edge of reality and struggled to come back to this dimension. It was intense and terrifying.

I summoned my Warrior spirit and sat up in the cockpit. A giant Jaguar god gazed down at me, its presence towering over me. It was a reminder to always find the Inner Warrior and sit or stand straight and face chaos head-on, with Strength within Shadow.

Finally, the candle was lit, I returned to my body, and felt intense gratitude to be human again. It was good to be home.



Don’t Panic!

“Since when in the history of civilization, has panic been the proper solution to… anything?”

It’s been a while since I’ve written on this blog. There’s actually lots I want to write about. I’ve had lots of journeys and experiences.

I think the biggest insight I’ve gained in the past few months is the need for responsibility, emotional resilience, and faith.

After reading some interviews with Elon Musk and learning how Isaac Asimov’s Foundation series really impacted him, I finally got around to reading it. We are living in an age where “psychohistory” is not predicting a good future, and I’ve been spending a lot of time thinking about these topics…

We are crossing four of the nine Planetary Boundaries, our collective sensemaking apparatus is in complete disarray, and everything is shifting exponentially.

Coming soon, posts on:

  • My Burning Man experience.
  • Redwood forest interdimensional travel.
  • Ayahuasca cosmic temple journeys.

Stay tuned, and in the meantime, Don’t Panic!