Windows

Life is a series of windows.

As we surf through this universe, we cannot fully bend reality to our will, but we can surf to different dimensions. Every once in a while, a sliding window opens. There is a brief moment of time, when we can feel a sense that a portal has opened to another dimension… A place of magic and possibility. It can be triggered by meeting a new exciting person… A mystical experience… A transcendent idea.

When this happens, so often, we get scared. It’s the unknown… We need to surrender to it. “What if…”, “How?”, “But.”, “I can’t…” Resistance appears. Sometimes we don’t leap through the window. That’s ok. It wasn’t meant to be. We can enjoy the echo of possibilities from that dimension in our dreams and imagination.

“What a beautiful, beautiful thing to be able to dream when you’re not asleep.”

The more we dream, the better we get at it.

“On the periphery, just outside. There’s always a window. But people are frightened to look through it. It’s safer in the prison cell.”

Someday, a window to magic will open and it will be time to leap.

Spliff MacGyver == Tyler Durden?

“It’s only after we’ve lost everything that we are free to do anything.”

There have definitely been times in the past year, especially when Spliff is offsite, living in a bush, cave, or on the streets, that I wonder to myself…

“Is Spliff real? Or am I having a psychotic episode, and he’s actually me?”

Of course, I am usually super blazed when I have these thoughts. However, is it possible, that he’s just a subconscious manifestation of myself that I created in my mind and that it’s actually me that is dirty and homeless on the streets? What if my subconscious mind is just protecting me from reality, and that this San Diego suburban bubble life that I live is actually a dream or illusion? What a mindfuck

“Fuck Redemption. We are God’s unwanted children.”

Spliff hasn’t said those exact words, however he and Jimmy have definitely reflected that sentiment several times when fear and uncertainty kick in. I’ve also shared this observation with Spliff that maybe he is Tyler Durden, and his response is

“I don’t know bro, maybe, but I think I’m real.”